The feeling of powerlessness hits differently when you watch someone you love to succumb to addiction and return to using. No matter what the reasoning your loved one has for returning to use, it can feel like you are losing a part of yourself. When my loved one relapsed, I instantly began to blame myself. What did I do wrong? Was this my fault? Does he still love and care about me? He is abandoning me? So many questions and a poverty of satisfying answers. The simple truth is that and addict relapses because that is a natural part of the disease